What do I name you?

day seventeen
Enjoy the little things - because I always enjoy them with you.

I was thinking about so many things over the last few days and every time I would think "I need to blog that for Billy!" or, "That'd be an awesome thing to share!" I would get side tracked.

I started thinking about how so often in this world, there is life that pollutes us. It brings us down, makes us feel icky, makes us feel unworthy. I remember though, when I feel like that, all of the joyful things that I have been blessed with. This sounds so corny, but I guess I just needed to do a little think-aloud.

I was feeling kinda down this weekend and went to a church service Sunday where they talked about Romans 12. I wanted to cry, but decided to laugh because Romans 12, is always the chapter that reveals itself to me when I am upset and feeling like I don't have the tools to be successful. I definitely do, and I can definitely feel inspiration and conviction in all parts of Romans, but especially the verses we were reviewing Sunday. Romans 12:2, as many of you know, has been a verse that shows up for me time and time again as a reminder... you are special, you are great, you can do this. I have it posted on my wall, and it has come up in church services that I have been to, across the states, five times this year alone. I am constantly amazed that I get the privilege to be watched over and protected when I feel so small.

That was the cool, and exciting thing about Sunday.

I also thought about this upcoming year and all the fun things that are going to happen and the things I get to do. I am so moved by the gentleness that Billy you give me when you are far away. You know how to maneuver around my ups and downs and confusions. You are level, you are patient, and that is what creates such a great foundation in you. I am so overjoyed to spend year after year after year with you and I balancing life together. Our adventures, our spirits, our achievements, our faults. Learning more and more as we go, I can't wait for that.

So I've been preparing for you. I've been thinking about all the ways I can prepare to be the best I can be and how I can love you, and those around me, the best I can. That's a surprise though.. I'm working hard on that until you come home. Maybe that's why you haven't seen me write as much ;)

Last night on the phone Billy and I talked about honeymoons. Anyone have any suggestions? It's fun to think that's something we get to do. I got an email today from Orbitz about travel packages and it made me smile from ear to ear... what an adventure we get to share before starting the day-to-day life!

I know today that even though I had a scary day in the doctor's office, and all these little weird things happen with my body that make me not feel well, I know that I am going to be just fine because I have so many great things in my life that get me through each day. I am grateful for late night phone calls, and my cat that snuggles with me. I am grateful for my roommates, and for a warm house and warm meals. I am grateful for my family that loves me well from afar, and for my family that loves me well here. I am grateful for my church, for my community, and for my mentors.

I am grateful for you, and your inspiration.
I am grateful for friends, and my education.
I am grateful for the Packers being in the Super Bowl, and I am grateful for Zayd sleeping in his own crib tonight.